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Homeworks,tests and classes in summer should be banned.

We tend to ‘perform’ the many versions of ourselves situationally. The sum of our performances of identity(ies) make up our very social make-up.

I wonder how does it feel to be sheltered and taken care of. I've long forgotten the feeling.

At this point in my life im prepared mentally and psychologically to spend the rest of my life alone, i dont give a shit!
as i get older and more mature i dont even bother to flirt anymore in passing, i dont give anyone the satisfaction to rush to judgment viewing me as some wierd desperate loner, ever. for an idiot that im, i have done the simple math about my bright future:p
if i was to live lets say another 30-40 years, its a piece of cake to spend it totaly on my own, but free completely, detached of all the bullshit typical man-women relationship trying to find some meaning into their pathetic lifes . the concept alone is begining to look clearly as some sad joke waste of time.

 

kurto, plako pse merzitesh?

( jo ore nuk isha i merzitur:dd. nothing different from what i think often times in silence)
or i should bettter say, just another episode of soap-opera in the world of some little drama king! Lool

 

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha kurti
At this point in my life im prepared mentally and psychologically to spend the rest of my life alone, i dont give a shit!
as i get older and more mature i dont even bother to flirt anymore in passing, i dont give anyone the satisfaction to rush to judgment viewing me as some wierd desperate loner, ever. for an idiot that im, i have done the simple math about my bright future:p
if i was to live lets say another 30-40 years, its a piece of cake to spend it totaly on my own, but free completely, detached of all the bullshit typical man-women relationship trying to find some meaning into their pathetic lifes . the concept alone is begining to look clearly as some sad joke waste of time.

 

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unforgettable night. i should go out more often

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha kurti
unforgettable night. i should go out more often

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my whole life these late late hours of the night (or early morning i should say) im wide awake, no matter what.
in some documetery about sleep disorder they were saying that the very best and most important hours of sleep are between midnight and 5 in the morning.
well, im compleetly fucked in that department, because even when i was little i remember vividly being wake during these hours, almost always and feeling miserably tired in the morning having to go to school. its even more miserable when you're surrounded by people that sleep soundly usualy..

u get that feeling of the world leaving you behind
 

i remember the supreeme silence of those hours, as i would step outside trying to fix my antena to get e clear picture of raidue or jugosllavian chanels on my black and white ilira tv.
was pain in the but during the winter usualy, when my hands would freez touching the antena and as soon as i would go back insight the wind would destroy all the work i put in and move the antena right back in the position where i would lose the picture...

sometimes i would step outside for a monment and wonder for a brief, during the winter with clear skies and the full moon the cold wind would cut your very breath, was so clear i could see in the distance the waves breaking in the middle of the lake and looking white, in the middle of dark disturbed waters of the lakte at night, dark fury of nature that would scare the shit out of a kid like me then anf now when i would imagine being stuck in the middle, then i would run back insight, being so thankful of the warm feeling of being insight...

then slowly the the sun would start to rise behind the mountain, either the wind would stop or not was compleetly irrelavent, would bring life to everything, would kill the enxiety, than my body and my mind somehow would always feel more relaxed in tune with nature and ready to sleep.
then shorlty in couple hours i would have to get ready to go to school, baraly waking up from e deep deep sleep. giving the inpression of a sleepy lazy gjumash.