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I am sorry i haven't talked to you in so long. I feel i have been lost...no bearings, no compass. I keep crashing into things, a little crazy, i guess.
I have never been lost like this before , you were my true north.
I could always steer for home, when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry.

I still think some mistakes's been made, and i am waiting for God
to take it back. I am doing better now, the work helps me. Most of all you help me. You came into my dream last night with that smile of yours, that always held me like a lover, rocked me like a child. All i remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling, and i tried to keep it alive as long as i could. I am writing to tell you that i'm on a journey toward that peace, and to tell you i am sorry about so many things. I am sorry i didn't take better care of you, so that you'd never spend one minute being cold or scared or sick. I am sorry i didn't try harder to find the words to tell you what i was feeling. I'm sorry i ever fought with you. I'm sorry i didn't apologize more. I am sorry i didn't bring you more compliments on
everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I am sorry i didn't hold you with so much strength that even god couldn't pull you away.

There isn't an hour in my life without you in it. I fought my fear
by telling myself you would come back someday, and trying to thing of the first thing i'd say when i saw you again. I must have tried out 100possibilities. What did i finally say? Not much. My mouth wouldn't work except to kiss you. When you said i am here to stay, that said it all. Well, i am doing it again. I keep imagining what i'd say to you if somehow you came back.

To the one person in the world who i was born to love forever.