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- Gjuha Spanjolle (http://www.forumihorizont.com/forumdisplay.php3?forumid=178)
-- darke (http://www.forumihorizont.com/showthread.php3?threadid=6026)

It's amazing how time passes, how fast it goes. When was it that we were writing letters to each other? the dreamers?
How much have we changed since then, how many dreams have we fullfilled, how many challenges have we faced, how different shapes and directions our lives have taken? and yet, I can't but obey tonight to the law of return and drop a line in this sweet diario for lorinka and silvushe.

Hope to see you soon. Besos para las dos

Que bueno

Yo estoy cansada hoy, pero' leendo este palabras de klodel,me siento mucho legera.
hey how was in my just learned spanish skills ?

You girls are awesome, I want to thank you for still sticking here and thinking of me and of each-other even after a long journey of adventure. Dreams are still on fire. I hope yours are firing up as well.
These past months my life has been facing a few dissapointments,yet they have made me so much stronger.

con amor
champinona.

Re: Que bueno

Buenos d�_as a las dos!

Hoy, mejor dicho, esta mañana me he levantado un poco meláncolica y casi como siempre que me siento aqu�_ suelo venir a este rinconcito del espacio virtual que tan buenos momentos me ha traido. Ultimamente me suelo sentir as�_ de melancólica y no sé por qué, quizás sea porque mi vida está cambiando a pasos agigantados, y de vez en cuando echo mi vista atrás, para no perder el rumbo, para saber de dónde vengo y a dónde quiero ir. S�_, s�_, vosotras esta�_s ah�_ tambien en mi camino y os aseguro que algún d�_a voy a viajar dónde quiera que os encontréis para saludaros y poder daos un beso en persona. La noche que con tanto anhelo estaba esperando, llegó de pronto y en secreto, y unos labios con acento albanés me cantan ahora y están haciendo que mis sueños se transformen en acciones... 

Y ahora un beso grande virtual para cada una!

 

PS: lori! tu español está mejorando a la velocidad de la luz!!! Enhorabuena!

Ahora me esto descansando.

Es una noche muy tranquila y yo tengo prisa.Es tarde para mi estar en un laboratorio de sicologia. Adios. Alguien esta' esperando para mi...

Re: Ahora me esto descansando.

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha lorie
Es una noche muy tranquila y yo tengo prisa.Es tarde para mi estar en un laboratorio de sicologia. Adios. Alguien esta' esperando para mi...

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no

Nunca

nunca dir nunca

Silv que quieres como regallo? estoy meditando sopra ese pero no se, ni tu ermano no me aiuto mucho.., mejor decir de nada :p

Darke, i miss your bright soul and your happy heart.
Remember Us!

Late Letter

(for Lorie and Jona...)

I've been able to leave and come to rotundly say that this place (forumihorizont) can work like "suspensive" cardinal points. North there, over there the south, east here and the heart beating at west... There are some things in our interior that very few times fail.

All of us would have to be able to oftenly cross the bridge; that bridge which takes us to the other side and where we can discover how the new avenues of life are; where we can ask ourselves about the destiny, about ourselves, about hazard, about our good or bad luck or about other people and other things that misteriously keep us on foot. This is a kind of privilege that somehow has to compensate the other face of the coin. Be wellcome all those arms and places where we seeded our better memories.

The prescription for something to go out well says it's needed "faith"; I think we all learnt this from our chilhood. By now, sometimes "you too will feel illuminated, like a lamp and a compass, with your eyes full of looks and landscapes that inhabit in any corner in your interior".

Lately I'm living so intensely that another lives show up by some of the places like these suspensive cardinal points. And I know I can offer my hand, my hug, my kiss or just the purest look, the one that allow to see all the lagoons and deserts that still are part of my way, because happens that in this contagious desease even the sadness is beautiful to us.

But, I repeat it, there are so intense moments that even when touching them and touching us, can jump some sparkles, like last night. I left and I come and i will probably leave and I will surely come; it doesn't matter at all. Here, guided by this suspensive cardinal points we all come and stand, crossing the buble time. Will you my farest friends feel the same? I'm no scared from that net which i am not able to reach when the vertigo appears. I like this risk and, once in a while, I crash down, like you... withouth hiding the scars; maybe thanks to them we are approaching the best...

Happy Easter!
Kisses...

darke

Silvushe, Lorinka

Happy Easter Girls. MAny happy returns of the day. Light candles for me don't forget please.

Silvushe I am not sure if I understood you however it seems that this cardinal point will remain a relaxing point when you want to come and read people's thoughts or think out loud and write down your thoughts.

I have to go now, I am enjoying my new adventure and my very immediate results. Being enthusiastic makes things move for the best. and I haven't forgotten about the photos, just have to take some

Besos para las dos.

your crasy friend

If staying home one morning because of sickness

and this urge to write how i am doing to my very best friends in this space is not a cardinal point ,than i don't know what it is. I hadn't been in this topic for such a long time therefore i missed your Easter wishes.
But here i am writing and letting you know that God has been very good to me,that everything from this side is going awesome, and that the many trials have been blessings.
I have realized so many things and there are so many things to learn.I have realized that the grass is never greener on the other side. I have learned to be at peace and content with my shortcomings and humble with my strengths,therefore i have learned balance, a balance that comes only from God. Though these goes in my inner being , in my outer expression i have learned to be carefree, to live my life to the fullest, to try the craziest things: to eyewitness the natural birth of my nephew, to take care of him,to have a tatoo on my ankle, to dance till my feet hurt,to dance like nobody is whatching me, to speak and preach to people about God, to lay on ice and pray with my head looking at the blue sky,take many pictures. (do you remember Serendipity scene or the scenes of The eternal sunshine of the spotless mind....?-that's what i was doing) and last but surely not the least, i have learned that without God,without Jesus i would not be living such a full, crazy,passionate and dangerous life.

Love you girls
kerputhka
L.

Hello girls,
It has been a while since last time. I have like a necessity to write may be because I am a little bit stressed today. Well it is full moon since 3 days and do you know? I can see it from my window all night long. Actually I had almost forgotten what it felt like to be under its influence, but I was reminded last days about its effect on me. So I feel like I am after a long time in touch with my soul. Actually it has been happy for all this long time, full of enthusiasm. I don't understand why sometimes it choses just to enter labyrints full of shadows that have no exit, besides a feeling of fear and anxiousity.

In my new job I meet very interesting people every day. I meet the world in one place, with all its variations of colours, languages, features, accents, cultures, behaviours. It is so amazing. I have created my little rituals, places I have my coffee daily or places where I go and sit with my friends. I was trying to keep count of everything that is happening of all the people I have met and I am surprised they are so many. and one more unique than the other. I am enriched daily with lots of details and experiences and knowledge, my soul had been eager to experience since long time. Have you ever had the feeling that you are in the right place where all your potential can fully develop and explode and be even amased with your own changes and emotions?

I wish I could have enough time to write down everything. my new adventure, my new life my new me. I wished to share all this with you. May be one day we will.

I miss you girls I miss our talks of dreamers. I miss too many things lately, but I am blessed with too many other things that make every day of my life an unforgettable memory.

take care and write to me more often.

besos
J

Hello Jona and hello white kerputhka!

this morning I woke up with your letter, my dearest Jona. I love reading this kind of... revelations?
I remember a text that I read some time ago about the ways of waking up... there are sad waking up's, rending waking up's (of tenderness), white waking up's, innocent waking up's, panic waking up's (Octavio woke up with a languor: "suddenly, his misery showed up in his thought: nobody dies from pain, or he would had died in that moment").

Besos and besos... muah muah!
:p

Yesterday I had a surprise my dearest Silvushe, your dreams, your words transformed in a letter reached me and gave me wings. I felt as having you close so close as if we were having a coffee and talking about our lives as we used to do all night long.

Just finished work and heading for home, the last stop is this angle where the other part of my world wakes up meanwhile I go to sleep. I miss everything tonight. Suddenly the space round me is too much for me to feel it up. I used to miss the space, now I have too much. I guess I am simply a human being who is never satisfied. It just I know I would find you awake if I were on the other part of th eocean and we would go to sleep at the same time. I feel that with this time difference I am missing so many things, however I am gaining so many things too. its just it has been a long day and the tendency to refuge to memories becomes stronger before going to sleep. Change is not easy to handle, especially the extreme changes so typical for me . But i guess there is no other way of doing it, you make one dream to come true but that has its own price, just as you mentioned in the letter.

Besos for you and your second half.

I'm happy to know you received it now it's your turn... I'M JUST WAITING FOR YOUR LETTER!!!!! :p

Besos!

Is this spanish?!

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha drytty
Is this spanish?!

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SO many things have changed, yet so many things remain the same. I miss you girls.

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STAND BY ME (LUUUV TIS SONG) ju pershendes se kam kohe pa folur me juve





When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah

Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Another year passed by. This one I didn't know how it went, but I feel it went to fast. Too fast to absorbe my new changes, too fast to have time to think over them, too fast to have time to breath and take care of all the important things I love doing. Too fast to have time to dream, too fast to have time to be in contact with myself and reflect, too fast for everything.

Time here runs fast, it scares me. However I always keep you girls in my mind. Life has sent us in different directions, but we always turn back here, to leave new footsteps, pieces of thoughts and dreams.

I found these thoughts among my older thoughts and I am sharing them for you with my best wishes for Christmas and New Year.



REMEMBER FIVE SIMPLE RULEs TO BE HAPPY:
1- Free your heart from hatred
2- Free your mind from worries
3- Love simply
4- Give more
5- Expect less


-No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

-God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but HE did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.


-Dissapointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on!

-When you feel down because you didn't get what you want just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you.

-When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There is a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

-You can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realise your worth.


-THE MEASURE OF LOVE IS WHEN YOU LOVE WITHOUT MEASURE.

In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it, don't ever let go, the chance might never come your way again.
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It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

-When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults and you overlook the excuses.

-Never abandon an old friend. you will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.


Our Friendship will get better since it is growing older

lots of love and hugs

Simply me

giasou clodel

happy holidays

I love your thoughts on December 21st.

They are so mature and i see some of your thoughts about God are true and rightly so.


I haven't been here in a long time...., much has changed.


i greet you with a scripture from Zephaniah 3:17

The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing."

Making fun of existencial problems, talking about them and laughing of the madness of the reality... Being alone in the middle of the cold jungle, I started asking and of course my only question is What is life? is it a dream? Our life is a dream but there are dreams and nightmares..... it depends how u live your dream.... so lost in this transcendent mood I remembered the poem of De Varca a famous spanish poet.... la vida es un sueño... and other poems and lyrics about life and dreams.... I knew I am kind of out of this world cos nothing I do, I think, I feel or I dream is within the " normal reality"... than I tried the sour taste of tekila.. I didn't have lemon so I had to drink only with salt...... I loved the feeling of getting lost somewhere in a transcendent world....... and freeing my mind and my soul......... and most .....living the moment with the happiness that I might loose everything within a second.... the job, the shelter, my safe harbour, my hopes, the future, the plans..... what I can't loose is myself..... i can even loose my mind..... but not myself........ and I felt so precious because of this........ I felt precious because I am different........ and I love it......... I sank my madness yesterday in tekila....... and I free my soul and my whole and i gave wings so it can fly....... then I slept with a smile on my face........ and I woke up with new wings. what is than reality? the difference between being awake and sleeping? there is no difference..... our mind works the same ---------------------------------------------------------- It is scary how things come back again and again, without failing once, however the person they struck is not the same, is stronger and stronger and stronger

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha Klodel
I knew I am kind of out of this world cos nothing I do, I think, I feel or I dream is within the " normal reality"... than I tried the sour taste of tekila.. I didn't have lemon so I had to drink only with salt...... I loved the feeling of getting lost somewhere in a transcendent world.......

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I guess I am in the second phase Silvushe, like a seismograph who registers for the moment the vibrations coming from elsewhere.Some one might call it interference from outside, I call it mind communication, soul communication, desire communication, energy communication, magnetism you try to resist, but without knowing it drows you into new spaces of imagination.

Today the world seemed to big to me and I felt like I have so much more to explore.... So I guess I will just enjoy that trip.

hugs
Me

Life is not about the destination, it is about the journey. Knowing your past, enjoying the present and seeing the future.

right silvushe? Where have you hidden yourself?

I am Money

I Am Money

Most people think they know me.

They don’t.

I am not what most people think I am.

I am not the paper in your wallet, or the coins that jingle in your purse.

I am not quietly sitting in your bank account, hoping to be used to one day.

You cannot see me, feel me or touch me.

I am an idea, and I am energy. I’m neither good nor evil.

I am only what you decide that I am, and I fulfill the role that you create for me.

I don’t care how smart you are, where you live, what you do, or where you come from.

All I care about is your energy.

Your energy decides what thoughts you have, and therefore your thoughts will determine the relationship you have with me.

I have very simple needs, and simple rules.

I am infinite.

I have no limits, except for those you place on me with your mind. There is no limit to the energy in the world, and because I am simply energy, I cannot be restricted or controlled.

I crave abundance.

I am attracted to whose who think without restrictions, who like to think big. When you believe there is enough of me to go around, I am naturally magnetized by that thinking.

I despise scarcity.

Because there is no limit to me, I avoid those who think from a win/lose or scarcity perspective. Those who believe I am in short supply, or difficult to receive, will find that very reality, because I choose to avoid those who think small.

I love value.

What magnetizes me most is the creation of value in the universe. I move to places where value is created, because creation is energy. If you wish to attract me into your life, focus on creating value for others, and I will appear.

I avoid entitlement and complacency.

No one ‘deserves’ to have me, and I am always moving to the place I am most respected and where value is created. It has nothing to do with ‘fair’. Those who take me for granted or become complacent with my energy will find me gone.

I only have one job, and that is to serve you.

It is a matter of energy and value creation. My purpose is simply to move to where I am attracted most, and where I can grow.

My one goal is to replicate myself.

Because there is no limit to energy, my purpose is to reproduce and grow, in order to bring more energy to the universe. I am created and replicated through value creation. I am an energy of evolution.

The message for you should be clear. Those who create value for others in the world will find me in their lives.

I am whatever you believe me to be.

So what you believe about me can make you miserable, or what you believe can enable you to perform miracles.

I'm neither positive, nor negative. I am what you decide I am.

If you fear me in any way, I can crush your ability to survive. If you get to know me, I can make your life flourish and your dreams come alive.

I can be your master, or I can be your servant.

I am only what you make me.

So, the relationship we have together will be determined by you.

Isn't it time we got to know each other better?



Written by GREG Habstritt

Even if birds feathers are plucked, the bird doesn't stop flying,
even if the string is snapped, the tune never stops,
even if I wake up, the dream never goes away.

I found the answer of my life's quest, what is reality, what is in my mind or what surrounds me.

The reality are my thoughts, my world. So I'll keep on thinking about, dreaming, exploring, enjoying the realities of my inner world.
Even if what surrounds me doesn't seem to have colours, I'll find colours in what is in me, there I'm free like the wind.

Darke when are you going to pay a visit to us Albanians? I miss your crazyness. I was rereading the little prince today, do you remember chapter 21?
What is important is invisible to the eyes.

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha Klodel
Darke when are you going to pay a visit to us Albanians? I miss your crazyness. I was rereading the little prince today, do you remember chapter 21?
What is important is invisible to the eyes.

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Klodel ...i love The Little Prince...

Me too Agent.

My daily tarot reading- so damn true!

The Fool card affirms that my alter ego today is a Quantam Leaper with a hero's heart. My superpower is liberated by free will and trust, which lead me to explore simple speculations for their own sake. I can move beyond the fear factor.

I don't know where I'm going, and I don't care where I've been. I only know that, as the hero of my own story, it's for me to find out. For, like Alice, I'm on the verge of stepping into a rabbit hole; unless I stop short and play it safe, I'll know soon enough where following my own feet has landed me on this curious venture.

The blissful frailty of unwritten conclusions and unguarded access sweetens the desire. So despite familiar warnings, irresistible promise draws my eyes wide open and away from domestic comfort zones, with only certain inquiry, hope and faith to recommend my course. I'll never know until I try.
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I'll continue to explore myself through exploring others. I'm curious about human nature, and I'm curious about me. As long as I don't loose the curiosity, which is the essence of life, I'm on a good track.

Lying to yourself you end up loosing yourself and being lonely. I have accepted my reality, so I don't need to lie to myself anymore.

So many new understandings in such a short time, this morning.

It reminds me of the poem Ithaca, which is about life experience. I understand the poem today with a new insight.

Long live adventurous souls, who aren't affraid to explore new horizons and challenge their own boundaries.

Looks like I'm refusing to wake up today, refusing to think, refusing to feel, refusing to see, refusing to hear the sounds, refusing to remember. I wonder how long will it last or what the thoughts will be when I'll wake up. I read few messages up, what is important is invisible to the eyes. Looks like it's hidden to the brain too. I don't know why I'm numb while tomorrow is supposed to be an important day. The most important day of this year- so far.