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Re: Letters unwritten

Well, let's take your letter as a lorie's test Jona jonaaaaaaaa you did leave some questions without answers, come on, fill up the test completely:p

Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha lorie
Where are you? Phisically, I'm at home, in my room. Psichically, I'm fluctuating between a fucked reality who steal my time and my most high dream
I don't see any of you, and i tell you i am not blind. I have 4 pair of eyes just to see you,and a some- pound- brain to think of you, but i can't. Are you vanishing? I'm always in this state, "evaporation", it makes me feel free but even when you don't see it doesn't mean that i'm not seeing you I'm gonna be always, don't be scared to lose me. Ties with me are forever even if we are not in touch thousand years Are you tired? No, never. But nobody can be in a high humour constantly. It's needed sometimes times of silence, of reflexion, it's like to take a snap after lunch. It's not sleeping as the night sleeping, but it conforts you very very much. it's like the time of praying. it's like the bath time. Intimate. clarifying.
Life can be a struggle at times, but i read you , i search for you and you are still distant.
Here's my hand ,i stretch it to you.
Why do you leave this grey baackground and letters? metamorphosis
Why are u indiferent? Never. Indiferent person is a DEAD. If there is something I hate is this, indiference
I thought your fire was a burning passion and a neverquitter ,i thought you were a soldier and a fighter. Where is your glowing light? who is born soldier will die soldier:p
I see the darkness in you. I'm darke:p darkness is my medium
Why wouldn't you resonate, be bright and glorious? ohhh wait for i can get my degree and you will see me bright and glorious :p
Where are you DREAMERS? I'm at homeeee!!!!!
How many dreams have you accomplished lately? litle by litle. Big dreams need time
Are you moving people with your dreams? where could i move? i can escape from Earth, so you can find me wherever i move:p Are you moved by yours?
Are you moving spiritually or are you still stuck in the same vicious circle of optimism-depression/high state-sad state again and again without solution--I can reach the sky and then even though you are the same person you see yourself in a totally different disgraceful light. girlllll, this is dramatic. Must be spring time...
Where is the measurement for everything? in the virtue?
And can dreams be measured? i don't think so
Where is the soul -seraching journey if you don't have the tools? who needs tools? soul is always searching
Where is the zeal of life in you ? in the hope to reach my dreams
Do you know? Yes, since i was born
Have you found it? I think yes, I found it and now i'm in the way to reach it
What makes it trigger? the bomb that makes you move and wake up and hurry you up to reach a dream is LOVE
Your selfish dreams? why is bad to have selfich dreams? is bad to look for my own happiness?
Your humanity? hmmm yes?
Your passionate heart? yes
Your God? my faith in Him, in him, in me, in my family, in life
or your perverseness? yes, totally
What is it that you are looking for? job:p
Happiness? In what? in the sharing of my life
In f**king with no emotion? in fucking with lot of love
In making circular trips of soul ? no way
In ilusion of a perfect mate,perfect car, perfect family, perfect friendship? i got the coclusion, that when you get something with your effort, with a lot of love for what you do, it becomes perfect. So yes, i found my perfect mate, perfect family, perfect friends
Is that what you are dreaming of? not exactly:p but they are part of my dream
Perfectionism? Do you think there is one? yes, i tell you i have felt it.
ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND? Yes
Do you have one anyways? I have two:p
Don't you see the times we live in? Are you blind? girl, you are agressive here... what happens to you?
Don't you sense a terrible war of spirits happening each and every day?
Don't you feel a war inside you when you find the angel in you and the demon in you?
HAve you asked yourself what triggers that war inside you?
HAve you asked yourself why you find yourself in deep sorrowful waters and at times in high euphoric moods? yes
It is not bipolar disorder believe me.Psychologist can find millions of names for our spiritual states but what is happening inside you is the exhausting fact that God and Satan are fighting over you. Each wants to claim you, to make you His. This is what i heard in "Constantine" movie
What dreams do you have now? they are secret:p
Don't you think you have to pray that a dream like this: 'I want to be in your Kingdom God ,not in the Demon's one ' can get accomplished.
Don't you fear for your soul? why should I fear? No fears, my lori.
huh?
No? No
Serious? Yes
unbelievable!!! yes, maybe, but this is something that belong to the field of the believing, and here, everything is a matter of faith and believe.
Whatever you choose, it will be judged in the pay-back time.
I pray for you.

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