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One by one...This is it!

It was like yesterday when I first came into my senses that being free (as a free human being) was the best of all my decisions ever! Being a girl it wasn't easy in my family. My father was so predictable, and my mother was just my mother ( who was afraid that I wouldn't never get married), and being married was the biggest step for a girl ( not like me!) in the Albanian stylish ( foolish) life!
And so on! I remember the first day that I was way from home, missing everyone and everything, was I happy for sure? What was I missing? I didn't have the right answer, or maybe I was missing what was left there; my pictures, my diaries, my secret love letters never mailed to the right address, and my smooth pillow ( full of tears when I was hurt), and this is it!
I grew up so fast! I grew up with huge rules! What about rules? What about them? What about me?

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Po citoj ato qė tha Fajtori
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Citim:

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Po citoj ato qė tha cecilia


Sa kurjoz qe je ore

Leni gocat rehat... te rriten

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What about rules? "You want to tell me what the hell is going on?"

I have to remind to myself that family rules should apply to everybody, and rules define what's allowed in a family! In contrary, there were personal limits mostly applied in my family, and they were so far from self- called( family rules). There were unwritten rules, and by just listening to the same " music" the whole time , was a terrible feeling! And I was the one who mostly got hurt , because I was a female, the only one female who looked beyond that reality!
For instance, I felt something that says " Ana , friends are only inside the classroom! Do you understand? We want you to be home after 1:30 ( the last class)!"
In my point of view that was not a family rule, that was a personal limit! So, for my brother Edi there were no rules at all, he could play after school with his friends, he could party with his friends, he could have girlfriends, he could have a beer, he could smoke, or even get home after midnight ( because he was a male, a so called "man" from my father).
Edi was the boss of me as well! Even if he was only 2 years older than me, he had the " right" to scream at me, to even yell at me, and to even hit me! He was the opposite of me!
The only right that ( I actually still remember) that I loved in my house was the right of studies! I've always found myself in the middle of books, reading for hours ( after I have done all my chores around the house for sure as a female!) And as a matter of fact the fewer rules in a family, the better life you will give to your children!
How about personal limits? They shouldn't exists at all, because if you apply them, you will only destroy what you have " created" as parents, you will destroy what's called Child!

Ana, a word of avice. If you going to blame your parents for all your troubles in your life. Also praise them for the good things in your life as well.

Hello there! I'm not blaming no one! I'm telling the truth, and "the truth hurts!"( as it said by the Americans !)
Have a blessed afternoon!

Citim:

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Po citoj ato qė tha Ana1
Hello there! I'm not blaming no one! I'm telling the truth, and "the truth hurts!"( as it said by the Americans !)
Have a blessed afternoon!

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Please ( readers), I will let you know when I'm done writing my memories! Don't try to judge me as all Albanian people do! Try to be calm, try to think beyond yourselves as human beings! Try to be more civil with my notes! I'm trying to think positive, and maybe I may help someone who may found him(herself)in my shoes! And I'm pretty sure that there are a lot of females who have passed on my way as an Albanian female, raised by Albanian parents! And my first point of view is to talk about the Albanian reality to which has more needs in calculating the reality than the virtuality! I know how to dream beautifully, but I can't effort it as a huge prize for helping others!
Thank you much!l

Citim:

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Po citoj ato qė tha Ana1
Please ( readers), I will let you know when I'm done writing my memories! Don't try to judge me as all Albanian people do! Try to be calm, try to think beyond yourselves as human beings! Try to be more civil with my notes! I'm trying to think positive, and maybe I may help someone who may found him(herself)in my shoes! And I'm pretty sure that there are a lot of females who have passed on my way as an Albanian female, raised by Albanian parents! And my first point of view is to talk about the Albanian reality to which has more needs in calculating the reality than the virtuality! I know how to dream beautifully, but I can't effort it as a huge prize for helping others!
Thank you much!l

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