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kur lexoj kto gaily happy lame filozofirat e lorie-it dhe missionin e kishes saj...
personalisht them me vete, kto njerz jo vetem qe nuk jane sober, por me siguri do smoking ndonje droge spektakulare brainwashing. no ofense lorie
hook me up pls

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perse happy duhet te barazohet me lame kurti? Mos valle duhet te shkruaj per qarje, e dhimbje qe te duket i thelle shkrimi? Si matet thellesia? hehe, po te pelqejne ato tipe shkrimesh lexo ca postimet te miat te vjetra.

megjithate ,ti flm per komentin, kur marr perspektiven e nje syri te jashtem,dhe perspektiva eshte e tille si e jotja, me pelqen sepse me ben ta cmoj me shume ate qe kam.
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Eshte nate dhe per ti mos dale temes po shkruaj dicka te shpejte ketu:

I love my life. Shoh teksa eci ne hapa te pasigurta, kam rene shume here, kam caluar, kam renkuar, por nuk jam ndalur. Eshte nje siguri e pashpjegueshme, ndjej tek eci ne drejtimin e duhur, ndjej qe nuk jam atje ku dua te jem, qe ndohsta nuk do jem asnjehere atje ku dua te jem, por qe po eci,zvarritem, vrapoj, caloj, shetit me shikimin drejt perpara. I love my life. I feel like I am doing exactly what I was born to do- and that for me means so much, means living fully and AUTHENTICALLY.

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Philippians 4:8-Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.

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lorie, faktikisht vet fjala lame eshte lame, kshtuqe dont let it bother you.

wasn't meant the way you taking it, there's some sincere disbelief that an adult could possibly, genuinely, feel this way about life.
not that im living in hell or anything and i never envy anyone in my life simply from a curious point of view...after giving it a thought

i mean, only when i did ecstasy once or twice did i feel this way for a brief, and the next day was a bad downer, so i lost interest.

anyway, wish you the best Lorie, qenka top drog dealer ky zoti

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le te perpelitet duhet te rimesoj mos ti jap degjim. shurdheria paguan aq sa siperfaqja e ngrire qe nuk te le te zhytesh . eshte dimer e viktimizem.

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the film/documentary The Great Silence: Rape in Congo, when appx 300 women, men and boys were raped in July/August 2010. ((( I am basing my group therapy project on PTSD, sexual trauma in African Women inspired ( though this word is not rightly fitting in) by this horror mass- rape.
When doing my research--'this horror has been going for 'forever'. I hate this with a passion. I use the word 'hate' in VERY RARE occasions because it requires so much negative energy out of you. Maybe---i dislike this with a passion---- no no, it doesn't do it. My heart longs for justice.
I wonder so very often nowadays, what does God see in us? I mean, look, humanity is so frail, so weak, so broken, so perverse,it has always been like this. If one reads the Bible from cover to cover, one will feel the same- a lot of bloodshed, crime,an accurate portrayal of everything that is human, diseases, insanity. What does he see in us? Our DNA reels in sin. I am the one who says : I am sorry , I messed it up.
I am that same person who messes it up again a few hours later as if I have had moral/spiritual/rightful conduct behavior,righteous act ( whatever you may call it) amnesia. I look for my integrity and the integrity that i have been working so hard on is to not be found at that moment. I repeat scriptures in my mind from the Bible, from the book of proverbs : my daughter, preserve sound judgment and discernment ,do not let them out of your sight;they will be life for you ,an ornament to grace your neck ( prov 3: 21) , Above all else ,guard your heart ,for it is the wellspring of life ,put away perversity from your mouth ,keep corrupt talk from your lips ,let your eyes look straight ahead ,fix your gaze directly before you,make level paths for your feet,and take only ways that are firm (prov 4:23-26) my daughter, let love and faithfulness never leave you;bind them around your neck,write them on the tablet of your heart( prov 3:3) I read them, i know them by heart , yet i fail so very often.
Why does he care about us? About me so much? I hurt him constantly. People hurt him constantly. Why does he even bother to set men apart ,distinguished men and women to educate us, teach us about himself. The only reason I have come up so far is love.
The Bible is a living horror book, I feel like throwing up when I read some gruesome parts of it. The best seller of centuries,except one time in 2008 (i think,don't quote me on the year) Harry Potter became the best seller for a year. And to think that the theme of Harry Potter was taken from the Bible, baahahaha, we could never escape God.
He still hopes for us,for me ,.... that I will get it, that we will finally realize we have so much power, we have so much freedom, we have so many choices to consider and that for our benefit not to burden us with the fear of " oh my gosh, i am in anguish which way to take."
He hopes for me, that I will be able to cry freely, unashamedly in front of people,something i still struggle with ,i have a hard time being vulnerable. I still hide my feelings when I am hurt and that's so deceiving of me, so hurtful toward God. I find it hard to regulate my feelings. I could hurt today, and express my hurt days later because I haven't processed what's been going on inside. My quest to living in a real powerful way involves to cry not in secret. Women who allow themselves to be seen when crying are so beautiful.Women who cry are so beautiful. Women who are real with their struggles are so brave, women who help other women overcome their struggles are braver still. I wanna be beautiful but wait...I AM.

Lovely By Sara Haze
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyfMZSaw0i0

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endorphins kurti, cfare do qe shkon tek ecstasy, pot, a LSD. you got endorphins -use them

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I am a princess.

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Strong women, soft hearts

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Citim:

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Po citoj ato që tha lorie
Strong women, soft hearts

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Right ))

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(pak semure, in my down time --perfitoj nga rasti te shkruaj nje faqe prej nje ditari tim ketu)

Ketu pemet kane marre ngjyra nge me te larmishmet,te gjelbra,te verdha, te kuqe, portokalli,vishnje dhe kafe.Vjeshta eshte nje spektakel pemesh shumengjyresh. Vijne njerez nga vende te ndryshme qe te vertetojne se vjeshta ne New England eshte e magjishme. Kungujt e gdhendur ,te rreshtuar ne pragjet dhe shkallet e shtepive te pershendesin me fytyrat e tyre te shtremberuara.Po vjen Halloween. Me ndryshimin e pemeve,ndjej dicka tjeter.
The air feels pregnant with something really big and powerful about to happen.What else is God planning this time?
E shoh veten si Lucy e vogel tek filmi 'Kronikat e Narnies' kur pret qe te takoj luanin Asllan dhe thote: The trees...they used to dance.' Pemet po kercejne keto kohe...
Edhe pse shume gjera jane vene ne pune per te lindur kete 'magji' qe po vjen ( dhe kush e di se c'eshte ajo dhe kur mund te vije?) ndoshta do vije fiks pas 9 muajsh-duket sikur ndryshimi mund te kete filluar qe shume shume kohe me pare. Thjesht shenjat e para shihen tani,por mendja ime njerezore nuk i percepton aq thelle gjerat qe mund te kalojne pertej realitetit te dukshem dhe konkret. Zoti eshte gjithmone ne pune per ndryshim--une thjesht ndjek ate.
Kete here ndryshimi duket kaq i thjeshte,fitore e embel ,fitore e lehte. kam patur shume raste qe me eshte dashur te punoj duke 'shtrenguar dhembet' per ndryshim sepse ndryshimi at times feels like you are pulling teeth. Por jo kete here.
Shume gjera po ndryshojne keto kohet e fundit: mendja ime, proceset mendore, familja ime, shoqeria ime, kisha ime, komuniteti ku jetoj etj etj.
Se fundmi shume njerez kane studiuar Biblen dhe duke lexuar ate kane vendosur te bejne nje zgjedhje kaq te rendesishme per jeten e tyre : te behen te krishtere. Entuziazmohem prej kesaj gjeje sepse eshte nje ndryshim kaq i madh per nje njeri te behet i krishtere,nje ndryshim qe te transformon jeten( per mire sigurisht).
Vellai im i vogel ( qe s'eshte me i vogel tashme) me ate sigurine e tij te heshtur, qetesine e tij, mprehtesine dhe zemerbutesine e tij dhe maturine qe ia kalon moshes qe ka me inkurajon dita dites teksa tregon per studimet Biblike qe ben me shoket e tij te shkolles se vet. Dhe une me shaka ia bej: you look like an evangelist, even when you play ping-pong you look like one ( jo se ka stereotip per ministra- por per gallate )
Dicka tjeter qe me ka entuziazmuar eshte deshira e madhe qe kane pjesetaret e kishes te sherbejne ne komunitet.Kjo deshire eshte rritur shume.Mblidhen njerezit grupe grupe te sherbejne ne njefare menyre te varferit, te pastrehet, te moshuarit dhe cdo lloj nevoje qe shohin.
Me entuziazmon ideja qe jam ne Hope Worldwide board of directors dhe mezi pres qe te bejne me shume aktivitete dhe organizime per njerezit qe kane nevoje per ndihme.
Shoh gjithashtu sesi njerezit rriten akoma me shume ne godly character and integrity dhe meqe une s'rresht se shkruari per rritje dhe ndryshim( ndoshta edhe I annoy people with the same topic over and over again but prepare to be annoyed...bahaha ) dua te sqaroj qe perpjekja per nje rritje te vazhdueshme ne karakter eshte pjese e te qenit e krishtere.
Don't get me wrong,it's not that you don't see change anywhere else and it's not an arrogant statement- i don't wish to come out like that. But Christians are called to be transformed according to the nature of God- they are to be godlike: self-controlled,humble, kind, bold ,courageous, gentle, pure,merciful etc etc. Christianity therefore is about self-actualization,which can grow any place any time. The notion of self is so elusive.The notion of improving yourself is what counts--self-actualization is always a process not a stop sign. And no offense to Abraham Maslow and his pyramid of needs with self-actualization on the top need and food and shelter on the bottom needs meaning that you can't be self -actualized unless you have food and shelter and basic necessities. The concept sounds interesting and helps only to a certain point. After that one realizes that self-actualization is not based on circumstances ,it is beyond circumstances.
Nje gje e fundit qe me ka inkurajuar se eshte ndryshimi ne Shqiperi. Me entuziazmon fakti qe nje grua e thjeshte si gruaja e Edi Rames te kete arritur aty ku ka arritur ,te kontribuoje per shoqerine Shqiptare ne menyre aq te fuqishme.
She thinks she is not going to change the politics in Albania. Politics is already being changed by her presence alone. I will make a point to read her financial/ economic/ transitional times journal articles about Albania. I feel encouraged by all this, it is like a breath of fresh air,freeing. The air feels like it's about to give birth,the tress are dancing, change is in the air, victory is right here, God is awesome.

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