lorie
you fascinate me...
Regjistruar: 23/07/2003
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20 janar, e marte
i woke up with the pity in my throat.Pity for someone...
...andi remembered Balzak that says :"if in a woman's heart there's pity ,love won't hesitate to come."
-oh Bullshit!!! ... if love is based on pitiness then i don't want it...
I worked half asleep ,like a zombie from the other night ,my eyes seeing mists .
and then i blamed everybody for their coldness without realizing that i was being cold in the first place.
I got back from work enthusiastic when suddenly i find her crying on my shoulder ,and i had to be strong ,YES,for both of us....
But then touched by the melancholy i started thinking, the nostalgy swept me away.
Started thinking of him, his blond hair, green-blue eyes, the distance, the strong bond of ours that nothing and no one can ruin. Oh i miss him so muuuch!
He has changed ,his voice deeper when he says:"sis i miss you",
he has become taller much taller.I saw the picture.Honey you have grown so much,so much!!!! That fact almost makes me wheep but i can hold,i have to,for both of us.
i was thinking this when i was rushing for my class today.
the prof ,which i had never heard of his stubborn nature and his i-can-better-the -world Mission,made me speechless,what character!
he actually challenged the smoking persons that if they quit -they will take an automatic A...and some did take it, well at least quiting for three months =a class...
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good humored i go to this place to try dresses for the big "event" and look around alone ,explore ,my curiosity is high...
and i see this.............. Piano .a very familiar piano like i have seen in some pictures ....i turn to a baby ,a small baby admiring that beauty ,for the first time in my life.i touch it ,so smoothly so nicely. ..and for the first time i play it ,i have no idea how ,... soon i get sad i don't know any piece to play ,not a simple one ,nothing .what do i do? my fingers tremble.
i should learn to play piano-i say and i hardly breath.
but then i press the keys one by one ,listen to every sound and it is great.it is breathtaking.i started making my own music,my own piece.
--who's here?
-- i am sorry sir,i saw the piano and...i couldn't stop.
--oh it is fine.-he said smiling
--who plays the piano?
--my two daughters play.they are married now ,they don't live with us ,one is in Florida the other one is just half an hour away.--he started showing me pictures of them and stories of them.could i think of them more that i could think of the piano???
i left the place with the wish to play once more ,just once more, to feel my fingers pressing ...
i got back home renewed, made the "fashion performance" of dresses pretty happy with overwhelming feelings like a "lady in red" since that song was in the background.
and then the feeling calmed down while reading a book that i had no desire reading at that moment so i stopped reading it for returning another day .
Now ,the sound track of the Lord of the Rings is making me feel so vast inside, the sweet voice so caressing ,so relaxing ,i am filling the void ,my spirit cherished of things i am learning,things i am challenged.
such inspiring music..!
......at night i can breath of hopes....
Po. Shtoj.--kerkoj falje for my swearing-B......
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Philippians 4:8-Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.
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