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-- Fragments of my day (http://www.forumihorizont.com/showthread.php3?threadid=6120)

Morning was all talk talk talk which i had missed a lot. Especially sharing even the most trivial things which i didn't consider worth of talking but they are i guess.
Then piano, dramatically playing it as if i was aniticpating a death.I don't know who to be:the woman on the piano or the photographer of that piano .Can i be both?
I thought i needed some cuts in my life.
Phone calls responded to secretary machines: You just reached ......3 our phone has decided to collaborate so that you can leave us a message" and the last word was prolonged with a female ala coquette voice which i found it original.
The TV in another room was giving bits of sequences, intervals interrupted as if the TV had decided to think in a stream of counsciousness jumping from one topic to the other without making sense.Or was it probably schizophrenic?
Then i made myself to walk ,which was painfully done and there i see her trying video tapes and DVD-s. Guessed the TV hadn't gone mad after all.
I walked back in the room and wrote ,wrote ,wrote and thought ,with the pain in my body.
And here i am still in pain eager to read about the secret society Priory of Sion and its mysteries and trying to think how i can get that book.
Strange ,the feeling is one of those that i have when i enter Border book- cafe stores. The rows of books make me feel pain because i am reminded of how much books there's to read and how so few i have read. Crazy?
She told me i was having depressed feelings, which was followed by a contradiction and ignorance of : Does she understand me at all? Am i so much different from others? IS the eagerness to know more and more something usual to everybody ?
I think it is or i hope so at least cause i don't want to be different. I don't. I am tired already.
All these and other things in my mind circle like ventilation in progress ,and me still feeling like i am out, behind a wall.I know the way to get out,I know it by heart,i just need some encouragement and for sure i am gonna do it.
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Today i saw him in a different light.I saw him and this whole thing easy,unhindered and pure.