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-- Fragments of my day (http://www.forumihorizont.com/showthread.php3?threadid=6120)

How one phone call can be so close to changing your life and how in one second, one wrong word, it fails to do so and your life continues unchanged, undisturbed. How Ironic!

It is so weird. You want something really bad, work for it, fight for it, dream for it and when it is within your reach one wrong move kicks it away with the speed of life. And what are your left with? NOTHING!
It's been nothingness for a while, and that does not please me. Not only does it not please it actually does the opposite of it, it disturbs me. It disturbs every breath that I take, knowing that its a wasted use of energy, it disturbs my every cell, every single limb, move or thought. I hate nothingness, i want purpose, a drive, anything!

Thoughts...betrayers of my being. Giving me hope when there was none and taking it away when i could have had it. They occupied my mind, invading my privacy at all times, probably purposefully only to abandon me when I needed a well thought answer. How could my mind go blank in such a crucial moment? Is it chance or destiny?